Sometimes you are just so sure that God has taken such good care of you. He always does but sometimes it just seems to be so loud to me. As I approach my departure in a day and a half to live in a village in Gatagara Rwanda, I can't help but reflect on all of the times that He asked what seemed like such hard stuff of me and yet proved Himself to be so faithful. There was the times when I was walking people through my home with interest to buy it, knowing full well that I had yet to raise the funds necessary to live in Gatagara with no income. There was the issue of timing to sell my house and the need to get someone to take over my car lease or buy it outright. None of those things were in place when the call was given. None were worked out when the commitment was made. But God. So again this week I have had the opportunity to see His care for me. I've felt incredible love in the midst of heartbreak. I've felt comfort in one of the toughest things I have ever been called to do. And I have peace. Yes, peace when I am leaving my culture, my home, have left my job and most of my possessions. And He's offered me a place to land with my kiddo who gets it. He's offered me joy and fun and rest and comfort and a measure of understanding I find invaluable from the one person it was most critical. So I'm 1 1/2 days from departure and all of the glory is His...

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Unknown said…
Hey Deb, it's me Babe, I just wanted to say your statement is very profound. You are an amazing woman and truly are blessed. I wish you nothing but joy and happiness on the next chapter in your life. Safe travels and my God always shine his light on you. 😊
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